How is that after SEVENTEEN posts about Rose and The Doctor that we still have feelings about them? The answer is simple. We will NEVER stop having feelings about them. We have several friends currently watching Doctor Who for the first time, and every text, tweet or Facebook status makes us flail over our epic OTP all over again. We’re not even sorry. So let’s dive right into our feelings for the week, shall we?
“I’m gonna race you to the moon, to the moon
I’m gonna race you to the moon
We’re gonna get there real soon, real soon
Hold your breath, I bet that we will get there soon
Come on, jump out the door
You can’t hold it back no more
I’ll show you how the birds learned how to fly
Don’t mind leaving your nest
Don’t mind making a mess
This might be the best day of your life”
I recently re-watched “The Christmas Invasion” and unabashedly flailed about during this final scene. They are both so adorably awkward here as they both essentially say “Do you still like me?”. I love the look of relief on BOTH of their faces as the answer is clearly “YES. YES I STILL LIKE YOU.” This song sums up all the excitement and anticipation they are both feeling as they are about to start a new journey together.
The Doctor: Everything’s new.
Rose: And what about you? What are you going to do next?
The Doctor: Well… back to the TARDIS. Same old life.
Rose: On your own?
The Doctor: Why? Don’t you want to come?
Rose: Well yeah.
The Doctor: Do you though?
The Doctor: Well I just thought… ’cause I changed.
Rose: Yeah, I thought ’cause you changed you might not want me anymore.
The Doctor: Oh I’d love you to come.
He may as well have passed her a note saying “Do you like me? Check yes, no or maybe.”
Of course Rose checked yes. She always checked yes.
There’s no one but you and me
Right here and now
The way it was meant to be
There’s a smile on my face
Knowing that together everything that’s in our way
We’re better than alright
Walking between the raindrops
Riding the aftershock beside you
Off into the sunset
Living like there’s nothing left to lose
Chasing after gold mines
Crossing the fine lines we knew
Hold on and take a breath
I’ll be here every step
Walking between the raindrops with you”
I think that “Fear Her” is a very underrated episode. It gets a lot of hate because of the villain in the episode but there is so much good shippy stuff between Rose and Ten here, from his pouting over Rose calling a cat “Beautiful Boy” to their bantering about sleuthing (see the gif at the top of this post). They are SO carefree and coupley in this episode, which makes the next episodes (“Army of Ghosts” and “Doomsday”) all the more devastating. And look how disheveled he is! No tie. A few shirt buttons undone.
As we love to say here: doing it, doing it, TARDIS doing it.
This song conjures up the image of one of my favorite Doctor Who lines: “There’s a lot of things you need to get across this universe. Warp drive… wormhole refractors… You know the thing you need most of all? You need a hand to hold.” (I love this line so much my friend Jenn incorporated it into my Christmas present this year. It hangs by my door and I see it every time I leave my apartment.)
And lastly, I was forever devastated that the Tenth Doctor did NOT light the Olympic Cauldron at the Opening Ceremonies.
“Relationships, I don’t know why, they never work out and they make you cry
But the guy that says goodbye to you is out of his mind
You always did kind of drive me crazy and pissed me off ‘cause I let it faze me
But I never wanted my time with you to end
Now I’m back in town for a day or two and mostly I came back just to see you
I’m leaving now but I don’t want to go”
This is a very recent addition to the playlist. As we tend to do throughout the day, Sage sent me the link to the song and the lyrics saying “Listen to THIS!”. And this is how I know that Sage and I are soul mates: we then proceeded to IM each other the EXACT SAME LYRICS (the ones I posted) at the same time. And then we yelled at each other via caps lock.
It should be noted that this was not the first time that happened. I honestly worry that we share one brain at times. Luckily, it’s an awesome brain.
Let’s again ruminate on the fact that the Doctor wanted the last face his tenth incarnation saw to be Rose Tyler. The first face that face saw. It all comes full circle. The end at the beginning. Mostly he came back just to see her.
“He said time can heal the broken soul
But I swear I don’t know if it ever will
If it ever will
God knows how hard I’ve tried
But I’m still holdin’ on even though you’re gone
So let the days turn to nights
Let the earth spin, let the years roll by
But I’ll still be lovin’ you
Let this road lead me on ’til the hurt is gone
But I won’t forget you girl, even if I had
All the time in the world”
“Think about it, Doctor. One last day with your beloved. Which day would you choose?”
I will swear that he thinks of Rose in this moment until my dying day. I refuse to hear anything different.
“You and I were friends from outer space
Afraid to let go
The only 2 who understood this place
And as far as we know
We were way before our time
As bold as we were blind
Just another perfect mistake
Another bridge to take
On the way of letting go,
This ain’t goodbye
This is just where love goes
When words aren’t warm enough to keep away the cold
This ain’t goodbye
It’s not where our story ends
But I know you can’t be mine, not the way you’ve always been
As long as we’ve got time
Then this ain’t goodbye…”
Our friend Michelle recently watched “Journey’s End” for the first time, which naturally prompted her to tweet Sage and I and THAT led to a whole feels explosion about the final scene with Rose, Ten and TenToo. Sadly, I was in Jury Duty at the time, but I chimed into the meltdown oh so perfectly at the end.
Sage: As sad as Doomsday is, I think JE is even more heartbreaking for him, because he has a choice. He knows that it’s…(tweet #2) …what’s right for her, but he sees what his life could be if he wasn’t burdened by the curse of the Time Lords. (tweet #3) & he CAN’T say that he loves her, b/c he knows, if he did, she’d refuse to stay. So he holds back, this time on purpose.
Michelle: So true…all of it! He gets the girl but not really and he has to see himself kiss her and love her always!
Sage: And DONNA, poor, brilliant Donna. He loses the love of his life and his best friend in the same day. Ugh.
Michelle: Donna crushed me, I wasn’t expecting that.
Kim: THIS IS ALL BUMMING ME OUT.
Michelle: Truth! I still have a few 10 episodes left…should I get more wine?
The answer is yes. You should always get more wine when you are watching the end of Series 4.
Anyway, I feel this song perfectly encapsulates what Ten is feeling when he is again on that beach in Bad Wolf Bay doing what he never thought he would have to do a second time: saying goodbye to Rose Tyler. But he is not REALLY saying goodbye to her as all of his memories and feelings are in TenToo. As Sage said, he sees through TenToo the life he could have had with Rose. And the life TenToo WILL have with Rose. Ugh.
Russell T. Davies said that everything that happened to Rose and the Doctor was of their own doing. They got a little too bold and a little too careless in their adventures (“We were way before our time as bold as we were blind…) and that carelessness separated them. Twice.
But I know you can’t be mine, not the way you’ve always been.
Yep. Excuse me while I go sob for my poor broken Tenth Doctor.